Yeah, idk. 

But hi guys! I am feeling quite meh but I will say I’m glad to be posting, and I’m sorry it’s been so long. I hope everyone is safe, happy, and healthy. 

So, why meh? I’m not even sure. I just have no zip. It may be partly due to me not refilling my thyroid prescription for the last week (I know. I KNOW). Or just the sense of overwhelm right now. But here’s a brief update on me and my writing:

Witch Lessons: has been professionally edited, and I participated in first #Pitchwars (where I received a full request but ultimately no mentor, though they gave fantastic feedback), and then #PitMad where I got 3 likes! I sent it off to 2 agents, and one passed. Besides those agents, I’ve sent queries to another 15 or so. I’m feeling good about it, and just praying I’ll find someone to fall in love. All the same, I do not enjoy the query process. 

Weightless: revision has been on the back burner while I’ve been focused on WL. And I definitely feel bad about it…

Poetry: I’ve written some new poems for Instagram contests, so that’s good. Also, my poem When My Arms Are Full was nominated for The Best of the Net 2017. I’m still building my collection for my next book. 

Book sales: Have been slow, so here’s a link to my Amazon page in case you’d like to buy this struggling author a cuppa coffee! 😉

Other: Just reading. More book reviews coming! 

Keep your fingers crossed for query success! Have a great day ♡


Publishing: The Aftermath


Hi. It’s a rainy, dark day here this Monday morning, perfect for writing in some comfy sweats, and not too bad for a bit of reflection, too. I realized recently I have this thing that happens to me after almost every single book/story/poem I publish. Without fail, it goes something like this:

-With completed manuscript in hand: Wow. I’m proud. I wrote this? It’s not perfect (nothing is) but I love it. I love my characters. I have to share this with someone. Maybe I should publish it someday…

-Pre-publication (months or years later): I’m soooo nervous! I’m excited! I’m thinking about all the tiny details, reading over every word, choosing carefully, hoping release goes smoothly, hoping I sell some copies, hoping people like it.

-Release day: Holy shit! I’ve published something! That’s amazing, and I’m proud, and I’m humbled, and can’t believe it. And yay- people are buying!

-Post-release: People are liking it?!?! Are they telling me the truth? Are they just being nice? All my confidence is gone. I’m embarrassed. I’d change so much about the story. What was I thinking? Am I a total loser? Is my story complete garbage? Why did I do it from point-of-view? Why did I filter so much? Why did I write it to begin with? What gave me the balls to think I should put it (and myself) out there like this?

-Post-release (long-term): Person: “Oh? You wrote a new book, right?” Me: ::Blushes furiously, fumbles with words, finally answers in apologetic tone:: “Um, yeah.”


Really. What is that about? I get publishing-remorse after almost everything. I would say not my anthologies, perhaps because I am more confident in those stories. For the rest, I know in part it’s because having something put out in the world that is my creation, that opens my work up to criticism, is difficult. Particularly in the case of my poetry book– I’m still freaking out over that being live. Because what if I’m blinded by my own love and affection for each project? What if it’s really a mistake to publish? Despite having beta readers, critique partners, professional editing, etc, what if it’s just not good enough? What if I’m not?

It’s been almost two years since my debut novel was published, and since then I’ve published another 3 books, and numerous short stories and poems. Two years is not long. Maybe this feeling will go away eventually. I’m still a baby in the publishing world. I’m not sure if I just need more confidence, or a stronger sense of “what’s done is done” but something needs to change. It’s not that I’m not still proud, of myself, or my work. It’s not that I’ve been bludgeoned with awful reviews–because I am proud, and my reviews have mostly been very generous and kind. It’s just…I second-guess everything. I keep thinking of everything I’d change. I need to stop looking backward, take a deep breath, and take compliments better, instead of getting a sick feeling in my stomach every time someone tells me they’re reading my book!

Because really, so what if some people don’t like my books? My intent is to have readers love my work, so it’s hard to be cavalier about but the simple truth is not everyone will. And I won’t lie, I’ve had a couple of low reviews that stung. In general, maybe because they pointed out critiques that I myself have of my own stories. Like, damn it, they mentioned XYZ, and I had a feeling that was a weak point. It makes me want to smack myself a little, to be honest. But I am not perfect. And I never said my work was either. You guys know that, I’m sure.

Why do I keep forgetting?

With that said, please consider supporting this awkward, emotionally-complicated, yet lovingly quirky author by buying one of my books. Head on over to the Books & More tab if you’re unsure where to start.

Thank you for reading,

Amanda ❤




Bookloot July Unboxing! 

Hi! The excitement is real, people. I got my first book subscription box from BookLoot yesterday and was NOT disappointed! Scroll down for a full reveal of July’s box, themed “What Fate Awaits”… 


How gorgeous! I recieved:

-The Library of Fates, a book by Aditi Khorana, which was already on my TBR list and I cannot wait to read it!

-Blossom of Ash, a short story by Kennedy Vega– a Hades/Persephone retelling which sounds awesome. 

-A Cloud Atlas candle, very clean/soap scent

-A Raven Boys temporary tattoo 

-coloring pages and pencils

-A pretty Ink & Wonder wooden bookmark

-2 pieces of candy, already gobbled up by my monsters

-Insert card art and a button 

I am already signed up to receive next months box and my Bookish Box should arrive any day as well. I may have a new addiction, guys…

Getting There…

Hi everyone!

I hope you’re all enjoying your summer—it’s going so fast, isn’t it? Like always, I suppose 😄

Have I mentioned my disbelief and excitement at having already released two books this year? (LOL, maybe just once or twice?!) Well, book #3 is almost ready!

It’s now 30 days until Like Waves: Poetry is released. I’m anxious, nervous, and thrilled all at once. Also, you know, it’s a ton of work and it means I’ve had less time to revise Weightless or Witch Lessons. Speaking of which, both require more work than I thought. Weightless is only about 1/3 of the way into revisions (actually about draft #4) and I haven’t worked on it in a month. Witch Lessons just got returned from my editor and sadly, it’s not as strong as I’d hoped. Probably because I love the story so much, I’m a bit blinded by it. I have a bad habit of filtering (using I heard, I saw, I felt, I see, etc) and it’s creating a barrior between the main character and the reader. So, I’ll have to go through and fix the hell out of it. Again, haven’t worked on that manuscript for a good month. Why? Well, because I’ve been scrambling to get Like Waves in tip-top shape!

I don’t mean that to sound like it’s being rushed, because I still have a month to go and all that’s left is formatting, uploading and getting my proofs. All that goes really quickly. It’s just, I kind of underestimated how much work it would be to go through and rearrange the poems the way I wanted, and to check for duplicated words or issues, etc. Then it had to be edited. But phew, that’s all done now!

Besides that, I’ve been working for the last week on a brand-new short story called The Thorns of Sacrifice. It’s a YA fantasy, very loosely based on Sleeping Beauty, and I submitted it somewhere super cool (more on that later…like if I get picked!). I finally just sent it now, and I’ll hear if I was accepted at the end of the month. Fingers crossed. I really want to get an acceptance! The story was SO fun to write. But, for now, waiting time.

Alas, I’m relieved to say with Like Waves and that short story out of my hands for now, I can get back to work on my two neglected manuscripts. I’m thinking I’ll start with Witch Lessons. I’ve missed Aya and Darcy a lot, and though it’s daunting going through and clicking accept/reject on ALL THOSE TRACK CHANGES my editor Dani made, it’s also exciting. I get to make this manuscript better. I get to love it even more! And it’s all written, solid in most ways, so lots less work than Weightless. Once that’s all done, I’ll return it to Dani, and start hacking away at Weightless once more. I’m trying to follow my Book Bestie Jamie’s advice and only work on one project at a time. It’s hard because I naturally want to juggle everything and feel guity if I ignore something too long, but I have to admit, I finish each thing faster this way.

And I am making an informal vow that I will not be publishing anything for the rest of the year. It is amazing, and rewarding, but So. Much. Work. And I think 3 books in one year is plenty ambitious, don’t you? I want to get back to writing new things, to developing all these stories in my head, like this new Romeo & Juliet reincarnation YA story that popped into my head one night. Sounds awesome, amirite??

With that, I’m going to go pour myself a glass of wine, kick up my feet, scroll on Instagram (are you following me yet? You should!) and chill. I have definitely earned a night of vegging, and tonight I’ll watch a movie and read. In between all my writing work I’ve been reading lots of poetry, which has been incredibly inspiring. I’m switching between It Starts Like This by Shelby Leigh and The Princess Saves Herself in This One by Amanda Lovelace. Besides poetry, I finally started A Court of Thorns and Roses. So far, so good. I’m ready to dive back in!

Have a great night everyone. And don’t forget to come back soon. I’ll be posting a giveaway in the next week or two!




Poetry book (mini) update & a new poem!

Hi guys!

I’m super boring lately, and I feel bad I haven’t been blogging regularly but I have a little update and a new poem for you. First, here’s the scoop:

I was super stressed recently, trying to write TWO brand new YA manuscripts that just flew into my brain and were driving me crazy with excitement, trying to revise Weightless (my YA fairytale retelling), trying to edit Witch Lessons (after admitting I needed to stop querying for a bit. DAMN IT) and also working on poems. So, deep breaths, my BookBestie Jamie McLachlan suggested I focus on ONE thing at a time. That is super hard for me, I tell ya, but I decided to follow her advice.

First, I sent Witch Lessons to my editor Dani for a round of professional editing. That way it’s still being worked on, but I’m not the one who has to worry about it (yet)! Then, I decided to shift my focus to Weightless. At 40,000 words, told for a middle-grade audience, and written in 3rd person point-of-view, it just didn’t feel right. I’m currently revising it, adding in at least 25,000 words, for a YA audience, and told in alternaing first person POV (four of them!) so you can see I’ve got my work cut out for me. The good news? I already, so far at 18,000 words into the revision, LOVE it! It’s so much better this way. Bad news? It means I am not working on anything else. The advice is working, and I am making progress. But I’m antsy to move on to the next thing.
Which is…. like waves! My ultimate goal for the release is the end of August. As soon as Weightless is revised, hopefully by the end of July, I will be getting like waves edited. I pretty much have it all compiled, however I DO keep adding poems, haha. But, fun bit of the update, is cover reveal and pre-order up REALLY soon! Like, fingers crossed by the end of next week. I can’t wait to share it with you! I am gaga for the cover. In the meantime, I am sharing a brand, spanking new poem, I LITERALLY just wrote. Be kind. I’ll clean it up some 😉 Let me know what you think! Thanks! 


okay, so i’m a poet
i remind myself of this in case i forget
i scatter thoughts all around me
in notebooks and journals
on the palm of my hand
the way i used to draw
paisleys and faux-mendhi designs in math class
okay, so i’m a poet

and i don’t know all the rules
and i know i don’t know much but
i do finally know myself know who and what
i aim to be, know the way the words
come out of me like birth
know the way love can heal
okay, so i’m a poet

and my body isn’t battered and my
blood doesn’t make the muse awaken like it used to
but i find my words anyway; i find them in memories
in the perfect mix of cool rain hitting the hot pavement
in my ever-stopping-heart’s reminder
that i am lucky enough to get almost everything
i ever wanted

and i am newly born, i am old as night
i am charred with sin, and most of the time
i’m not even sorry
i write down some of my secrets and the rest
i lock up tight for no one to see
not even my pen, my ink, my laptop screen
i am a hoarder of words, a giver of them, too
okay? so i’m a poet.

Book Release Countdown

Happy Tuesday!

Let’s be real; Tuesdays aren’t all that thrilling, although we are having tacos tonight at my house. So.

But today is exciting because I got my final proof for Beach Glass & Other Broken Things in the mail, and even though there was a pretty significant fix I had to make (with help) in order to upload the final, final, final version (HOPEFULLY???) I’m happy and relieved release day is almost here! Just 8 more days until I can take a big breath and let this book out into the world. I’m a little nervous because I am literally out of time to order another paperback proof, so fingers crossed that everything comes out okay and I can double/triple-quadruple check everything online.

What I’ve learned: Self-publishing an entire book is so, so different than self-publishing an e-story (duh), and way different than being published with a (small) publisher. I did not realize how much work everything was going to be for me, or how much stress I’d be under as I neared the release date. The awesome thing is it’s also been really cool, and I will definitely do it again. Someday. LOLOLOLOLOL.

For now, I’m checking things off my long list and have to get final files uploaded to the various sites, contact some local press, set up my FB giveaway, mail out some paperbacks to some early readers, and things like that.

Next Wednesday will be a great day, and I will be back then to share my release day links. Make sure you come back, too!


April Update


I’ve been having some minor blog guilt because I know I’m slacking on cool, new posts (sorry!) BUT I do have a few neat things to share today. Soon, I’ll have some book reviews (because, yay! I’ve been reading more) up, too. But today I just want to update you on a few things.

-My publisher Penner is interested in Weightless. It doesn’t mean they’ll take it, but I’m excited that the premise was intriguing enough. So far, I’ve sent a few chapters and the synopsis. I’d be grateful for some good vibes. I really love this story and I think it deserves an audience.

-I’m back on to the querying game for Witch Lessons! Partly fun, partly brutal, I’m starting out again with a pretty good responses. I’ve gotten some rejections but I also have a partial and a full out right now. So that’s sweet. Another batch is going to go out next week so fingers crossed. I really have had a good feeling about this ms for a long time. I love it, and I hope others will, also.

-As for poetry news, I got an acceptance for SIX poems from a really kick-ass place. I’m still waiting to hear that they’ve received my email accepting their acceptance (ha) so I don’t want to shout it from the rooftops yet because I’m still a little afraid it won’t happen. But still, so far so good?

Beach Glass & Other Broken Things is almost here! Can you believe it? Because I sure can’t! Don’t forget to sign up for the Goodreads giveaway. There’s still plenty of time left to enter and win a signed copy plus an engraved piece of beach glass. Right now I’m just reading through the last proof to make sure all is good on the paperback front, and then that’s it. I can sit back and enjoy my book birthday in a few weeks!

-Deja You: Stories of Second Chances, my BookBesties collaboration is also almost here. We just ordered our proofs and they arrived today, and they are gorg. Now we need to read through and make sure there’s no errors or anything, and then that will be on the way to publication (May 30th). We’ll also be doing a giveaway for that, so stay tuned.

-Fireflies & Fairy Dust. The anthology I’m helping out with is now re-opened for submissions. Please check it out here.

I think that’s it. Besides the mess that is my personal life right now (a happy mess, but still, a mess, thank you house reno), that’s all. Work at the library is going well, family is good, and I am anxiously awaiting completing some of the projects above so that I can get back to the writing. Damn, do I miss it.

Take care, guys. Enjoy the upcoming weekend!

The manuscript giving me gray hair.

I should not be writing this blog post, you guys.

What I should be doing is working on fixing the mess of a manuscript that is causing me endless amounts of anxiety, frustration, and guilt.

But…you know. Denial, and all that.

Have I mentioned Weightless much? Having a habit of not talking about projects much while I’m working on them, probably not. I guess I like to keep them private until they’re “ready” to be out in the world. Until they’re published, or going to be.

However, I have to “talk” this one out. I am driving myself mad with it.

Weightless is a fairytale retelling. It’s based on The Light Princess, by George MacDonald. It takes place in Scotland, and is about a princess (Ailsa) who is cursed to live without her gravity. Not only is she light physically, but emotionally and mentally as well. The curse takes away most of her wit, intelligence, and compassion. She becomes a shallow, ditzy, laughing thing, unable to cry or feel things deeply. Not to mention, unable to move without being tied down! There’s fairies, and magic, and evil, and true love. It’s funny, and heartbreaking, and really FUN in ways.

I adore this story. I really do. But never has a story given me so much problems. And it’s not the poor story’s fault, really. You see, I finished the manuscript a while ago. It was right around 40,000 words, and I queried it as an Upper-Middle-Grade (which is roughly for ages 8-12) story to several literary agents. I even had a couple requests for the full manuscript (a big deal!), however, they all passed in the end.

Then, I had my super cool editor Dani do a manuscript analysis. She remarked, among other things, on the voice, and POV (point-of-view). As well as that she had a difficult time connecting with the characters. Of course there were good things too! But I had to fix the issues. Agents had mentioned the connection thing as well.

I decided to tackle a major revision, turning the story from limited omniscient third person, where the POV is from numerous characters, and unfortunately included a bit of head-hopping, which can be jarring and confusing, to third-person from the POV of only four characters- the heroine Ailsa, the fairy godmother Sorcha, the villain Griselda, and the hero Graeme. For the first time ever, I opened a new doc in Scrivener and got to work. I should mention that it took me a good two weeks to finally decide on that POV set-up, and I went back and forth a few times.

However, I had settled on the 4 main characters’ perspectives, and got to writing.

What was good: The level of immediacy and urgency improved once I narrowed the focus on to those four characters. I felt much more connected, and so did my readers.

What was not so good: It still felt scattered in places, and it just didn’t feel right. I can’t explain that entirely, only to say that while I loved the story, I didn’t like the way I was telling it. I knew I could do better. Also, I was not sure it really was a MG story. I was thinking it could be an adult fantasy. Or maybe YA. God, I was confused.

Revision, take 2.

Thank goodness I hadn’t made it that far in that Scrivener doc. Only about three chapters worth, and I scrapped it. I made lists. Actual lists of pros and cons to doing different POV. Should I do first person present from Ailsa’s perspective? What about alternating only two characters? What to do? What to do?!

I’m not exaggerating when I say I was freaking out. Why so much? IDK. Because I believe in this freaking story and I want to get it published in this lifetime, probably.

I have now opened a new Scrivener doc, actually two. Because I started writing one in first person, past tense from Ailsa’s point-of-view and LOVED it, that is where I’m leaning, and hoping to tell the entire novel like that. However, because there are many important scenes that she’s just not included in, I feel it is necessary to also try another option, so I have yet another doc open where I’m trying out three POV- the three leading ladies (Ailsa, Sorcha, Griselda), and doing all three in 1st person, past tense. Also, I have concluded the story is YA. I think.


What I’m hoping, is that I can get three solid chapters done in both versions. Then I’d like to get my editor and readers’ opinions on which flows best, which is more urgent and interesting, and which version they connect with more. Because I feel like I can’t be objective anymore. I don’t trust myself. I love it, yet I’m incredibly frustrated. What’s that saying about forests and trees? I’m lost, and I think I desperately need someone NOT ME to say, This version rocks, or This version sucks.

I no longer know the best way to tell this story because I have overthought it.

I guess this happens?

An interesting consequence of all this mess, and multiple docs open, and the mass of confusion around me, is that I, a verified pantser, have begun plotting! I have a whole outline, going into each scene in each chapter. Oh wow. I am even surprising myself here!

Side note: You know what I love about blogging? It’s like free therapy. Sorry, guys. I’m a little neurotic, I guess. Still, it helps to vent.

So, sometime this century I hope to be done with this ms. Actually, I’m going to have to give myself a hard deadline, because otherwise I’ll just ignore it, hoping it’ll magically fix itself, and we all know that ain’t happening.

Weigh in, make me feel better. Have you ever been so frustrated with a project, and been able to work it out with enough time and dedication?

Thanks guys,


Goals, Resolutions, Plans

Happy New Year, everyone!

I like to start the year with a list of goals. Call them resolutions, if you like. (Some people are anti-NY-resolution…I’m not one of them). Last year I did the same, and I was pleased to see that I not only met some of those goals, I exceeded them.

2017 needs to be big for me. I have lots of hopes and dreams, and dang, I’ve been working hard. I feel like good things are in store with my writing. And I want to share them, because it really does help me stay on track knowing other people see these things! My resolutions:

-Get a literary agent. Yes, I have just started querying Witch Lessons, and I have, I think, two full manuscripts out on submission and probably four rejections so far. I plan to focus intensely on securing an agent for this story.

-Revise Weightless. I don’t know that many other stories have been as much work as this one, and I don’t mean that resentfully. I have been STUCK on something that I was querying last year (with little success) before finally deciding it just isn’t ready or right the way it is. I no longer am certain this even is middle-grade. It’s possible it’s YA. It could even be adult. I’m just revising, and rewriting the story how it comes naturally, and I’m trying not to worry about the audience so much. This may very well be a story that is hard to fit into a mold. Once it’s revised to my liking, my plan is to query—either to agents, or to small presses directly. I have a soft spot for this story. It doesn’t feel as “big” as Witch Lessons, but it too deserves an audience.

Publish Beach Glass & Other Broken Things, April 2017. Yep, my short story collection is something I’m constantly working on, editing and revising each story individually. I have two more I’m planning to write new, and have started on both of those as well. I’ll have a cover reveal sometime in March, and advance review copies going out that month as well. At least, that’s the hope!

-Publish something small every month. Or something like that. I like the idea of giving myself a deadline for these things. I also plan a short story trio ebook of three of my new fantasy stories sometime this month. More info coming!

-Submit, submit, submit. I mean to literary magazines, journals, websites, anthologies, what have you. I want to submit a lot of poems and short stories. I would love to see some of them accepted before I publish both those collections.

-Keep a daily writing planner. I already bought a gorgeous planner, complete with stickers! 
I want to make a daily goal of what I’d like to get done, and then see if I can stick with it. So far, day two of this year, and I’m on track with what I wanted to get done.

-Read more. I love reading, and yet I never make enough time to do it. I waste too much time on mindless internet browsing and way too much time on internet shopping (gulp). My plan is to read more books, and get better at reviewing (or at least rating) each and every one! I want to utilize Goodreads more, because I use it more as an author now than as a reader.

-Write more. Write longhand, write in crap notebooks, write on the laptop when I have the luxury of time and quiet. Write everything I can think of, and push myself more.

I think that’s it for now. Please, if you haven’t already, take a look at my previous post (Book Bestie Giveaway) because it’s super cool and we will have TWO winners who will each win 5+ ebooks/stories!

I hope 2017 is treating you well so far! So far, so good here. Tell me, do you make New Years resolutions? 

Take care,